Today SOS-Sharing Our Stories: Magic in a Blog invites us to write about a catchphrase…here’s one I use quite often…
When my colleagues have more questions than I have answers I say stay tuned
When my husband bemoans the day longing for simpler times I say stay tuned
When my children are anxious about their tomorrows I say stay tuned
When I sit staring, despairing, at an empty screen the Muse leans in close, whispering stay tuned
When sleep turns the knobs of my weary brain to receiving messages on a channel of dreams: stay tuned
When waking, I realize the story isn’t over. It’s a new beginning… stay tuned stay tuned
“Stay tuned” is an idiom meaning “keep listening” or “keep watching.” It originated in the days of dial-tuned radio receivers and eventually transitioned to television.
where I can watch you hopping along, pulling worms these warm winter days
unseasonable but I’m glad on your behalf, keeping my distance
hoping predators do the same, until you’re healed and take to the skies
lucky bird, forgive my bad Shakespearean pun: you’re Robin the Plucked
for salvation comes in the most peculiar ways, begging the question
of mortality, the taking and the giving in daily living
these two days I’ve watched your grounded red breast gleaming by the old arbor
—today, no sighting, inexplicable sadness despite the wonder
of your survival and the part I got to play. Little Robin, plucked
to live life anew, here’s to taking flight on your wings and my prayers.
Robin the Plucked right after his rescue from the grille of my sister-in-law’s SUV. She’d driven down I-95 a few days after Christmas to visit us. Robin had some feathers askew from his ordeal but his wings weren’t dragging; my husband and I put him in our fenced backyard in hopes that nature would take its course, that he’d soon be fit enough to fly again (and that he’d want to). There are no words to adequately describe him enmeshed in that grille, very much alive and calling out, or for the sight of him immediately trying to run once we got him loose and laid him on the grass. I was amazed and elated to see him eating in the backyard with other birds that came and went the next day. I didn’t go near him again, as when I attempted it, he ran. I refused to distress him any more (heaven knows being trapped on the front of a car going 70 mph is enough for a lifetime). I joke that he’s my last good deed of 2021; I kept an eye on him all yesterday. On this first day of 2022, he is gone.
I keep watching, however.
One final observation, regarding the symbolism of robins: They’re tied to a number of legends and mostly positive connotations like spring and good luck (begging another question: Who’s the actually the bringer of luck here, Robin the Plucked or me?). But the perspective of Mother Teresa moves me most at present, as quoted in No Greater Love (Benenate & Durepos) on the legend of the robin and Christ’s crown of thorns: “Each of us should try and be that bird – the little robin. When we see someone in pain, we must ask ourselves: ‘What can I do to give them comfort?’”
Happy New Year and new life to you, Robin, wherever you are.
On the last Monday of October I drive to work in pre-dawn darkness as deep as midnight. Rounding bends on deserted backroads past unlit houses, gaping stubbled fields, hulking shapes of farm equipment, shadowed barns, patches of woods, when off in the distance, through silhouetted tree trunks—fire.
A bonfire. Tall flames, bright orange against the blackness, undulating skyward. Startling. So Halloween-esque. Hauntingly beautiful in its way except….I can’t tell what’s burning. Probably trash. The fire seems large for that, and before sunrise? I am too far away to see anything but the fire itself. I cannot see smoke or smell it. No screaming sirens. No alarms. Only silence, stillness…should I investigate to be sure? The road twists and turns, demanding my attention, and as I reach a tricky intersection where a few sets of headlights from opposite directions approach and pass, I realize: I’ve lost sight of the fire now. I am not sure of its location. Somewhere close by it’s burning, consuming, destroying, I hope nothing precious, nothing of value… and so I cross the intersection, praying it is controlled until extinguished.
On I drive in the darkness, shivering.
I think of anger.
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Fire, anger. The contrast of being controlled, purifying, and righteous, or uncontrolled to the point of destroying, intentionally or not, what is precious, valued, and loved. Thinking of that fire throughout the day yesterday—there were no reports of damage—reminded me of a poem I wrote last week:
Why I Pray
In the absence of peace, I pray.
When my mind cannot fathom or even form questions, I pray.
When I am weary of injustice, of sifting truth and lies, when my inner well has run dry, I pray.
I pray for power beyond my own.
To overcome the red-hot dagger of fury, that I should not wield it, thereby scarring others and myself. To knit words of healing instead, one by one, like snowflakes falling to form a blanket of blessing, a holy hush.
Freeing myself by forgiving myself as well as others, feeling the weight drop away.
That quickening sense of awe, for even if I cannot call fire from Heaven (thankfully), I can move mountains of ice in my own heart.
Because, as long as I live, I will battle need, loss, and fear, trusting that love conquers all —its beating wings in my heart, forever my reason to pray again.
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with thanks to Andy Schoenborn for the “Embrace your why” prompt and the mentor poem written by a student, shared on Ethical ELA’s Open Write last week.
and to Two Writing Teachers for the weekly Slice of Life Story Writing Challenge, always encouraging “a world of reflective writers”—so needed.
This quote was in my planner for the month of March.
Since it is the month of the Slice of Life Writing Challenge, I thought of it in terms of writing, and of the mind—where writing lives.
I picture “comfort zone” as a little garden surrounded by a stone wall; there is no gate. There, in the coolness of the day, the grass remains lush and green; dew glints like diamonds in a sun that never rises nor sets. There is no twilight in this zone, nor any dawn. Time is irrelevant. The season is constant; perpetual spring. Flowers remain in bloom, lavender, pink, lacy white like a wedding gown, but they give off no spirit-stirring fragrance, and they never die. They just are. A little fountain bubbles quietly in the midst. In the distance, birdsong. The birds don’t come to visit this garden, though, beckoning as it is. They are living things which need living things. Nothing grows in the garden. It is not stagnant, only static.
This garden is a place where nothing ever happens; to attempt feeling, to imagine, to have any hope of creating, one must risk climbing the wall.
There is no guarantee of what lies on the other side…except that the ground is there to land on, and that the stars are overhead for guidance, and that the wind will not be controlled, it will blow where it will, and somewhere in it you learn what holds and what does not, like the stone walls, mossy, cool to the touch, henges of the human mind. That is the strangest zone of all. It has nothing to do with time, but with that small green thing that desires to grow, seeking cracks for tender tendrils to poke through…whether in or out. The little living thing simply reaches for the light.
And so we write. We scale the wall of the comfort zone where nothing beautiful grows… and discover unexpected light. Perhaps in the wonder of words, in the glory of ideas, in the power of story… and then we realize: Different gardens, different flowers, different wellsprings, perhaps…but underneath, the living root that connects us all, one to the other. It is deep. It is ancient.
Going more than a bit out of my comfort zone here: sharing Golden Shovel poems built from the planner quote. They still need a good bit of work. As we sometimes do. They are imperfect, unpolished. As we are. You can see the poems are mirror images of each other. For so are we, in the end…
The writerly zone, after all, cannot be the comfort zone.
It is a scaling of the wall. Of the mind, and also of the heart… for that is called trust.
Note that one definition of “mind” is the element of a person that enables them to be aware of the world and their experiences, to think, and to feel; the faculty of consciousness and thought.
Sounds like a writer to me.
Before the Writing
A keen awareness of World comfort beckoning zone of reckoning is this defining one’s mind? A vast, inner expanse encompassing the beautiful, a safe place of keeping but does that matter if nothing leaps from yours to mine, or ever climbs over the stone walls where grows our vine of stories, inextricably there intertwined, and infinitely rooted.
After the Writing
World of awareness, keen, a beckoning comfort reckoning of zone, mind, one’s defining, this is the encompassing expanse, inner, vast, a safe, a beautiful keeping of place -if matter that does, but -or mine to yours, from leaps nothing where walls stone the over climbs, ever inextricably, stories of vine, our grows rooted, infinitely, and intertwined, there.
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The annual Slice of Life Story Challenge with Two Writing Teachers is underway, meaning that I am posting every day in the month of March. This marks my fifth consecutive year and I’m experimenting with an abecedarian approach: On Day 26, I am writing around a word beginning with letter z.
Now that I’m over THIS wall…in which direction shall I go for the remaining five days?
lit bits and pieces 