Sometimes I think about the writing process more than I do about what to write. Like the origin of ideas, how the barest glimmering can turn into something substantial and take unforeseen shapes altogether during the writing. A breath of a thing becomes a breathing thing—for inspiration means to breathe in, to breathe life into. When I start writing my glimmer or breath of an idea, as it grows, shifts, and takes on a life of its own, it draws other things to it. When people say, “I don’t know how you manage to see these connections and string them together this way,” all I can say in response is, in the end, all things are connected. If you follow the glimmering threads far enough . . . .

Such was the case in my summer writing workshop for teachers. My co-facilitator asked fellow teacher-writers to bring a personal history artifact, something that holds a story about who we are or about a significant time in our lives.

My “default” artifact is a locket that belonged to my grandmother; her uncle gave it to her in 1930 when she was fifteen. She gave it to me when I was fifteen.

But I’ve already written about that: The locket.

I had trouble choosing another artifact. Why should it be so hard? We’re surrounded by pieces of our personal histories in every room in our homes, in our workplaces, even in our cars, sometimes . . . .

A thought hovered: There’s the cross necklace Daddy gave me at Grannie’s funeral. 

Nearly twenty years old, it still glitters like new, and there’s plenty of symbolism and story wrapped around it, for my father didn’t often give gifts, nor was he expressively religious except for a keen interest in eschatology. That he should give the necklace to me on that occasion (Grannie wasn’t his mother but his mother-in-law) is especially poignant.

I ought to write about that . . . yet, I hesitated.

I know! All those pictures I just had developed—if anything’s personal history, that is! Some years ago I’d gathered all my used rolls of camera film, placed them in a giant Ziploc bag, and promptly forgot about them. I’d finally remembered and had the photos developed (do you know how hard it is now to find a local place that will do this with same or next day service?). In these images, many loved ones who are gone smile at me afresh from decades past. Layer upon layer of stories to tell . . . .

Yes, this is an unusual sort of artifact . . . I definitely need to write about this.

The thing—the idea—certainly had a breath, a glimmer.

But it didn’t seem to be quite ready. I got the feeling that it didn’t want to be written about just yet.

I decided to take both, Daddy’s cross necklace and the old newly-printed photos, and as I prepared to leave the house that morning, another image glimmered in my mind. Rather brightly.

A sand dollar.

I have a few that I found years ago, and while I find them beautiful and compelling, I didn’t really think a sand dollar would be an artifact especially representative of my personal history. But . . . as the glimmering was suddenly there and I’ve learned not to question but to trust . . . I fetched the largest sand dollar, packed it carefully in a box with tissue paper, and took it with me to the workshop.

Guess which artifact I ended up writing about.

Of course.

I found this sand dollar on the beach when walking in the last weeks before my first son was born. There’d been a storm. The sand was still damp, the beach littered with seaweed and shell debris. The sand dollar, however, was whole, which is rare—they’re fragile and I’d never found any here before.

I don’t know why it drew me, just this morning, as a special artifact. It wasn’t something given to me, like Grandma’s locket or Daddy’s cross.

But maybe it was given, from beyond . . . .

I’ve just now recalled that, when I was born, my grandfather gave me twenty silver dollars. He did the same for all of the successive grandchildren. Sand dollar, silver dollar. Wealth of the sea, wealth of the earth. Gifts. Celebration. The coming of children, the next generation, the endowment of hopes and good wishes of those who’ve walked before. Like my younger self on the beach, I am walking the path of generations, I am the bridge between the past and the future. The sand dollar I have in my hand is really a skeleton. It was once a living creature. It’s symbolic of faith and strength despite its fragility and it comes from the ocean, which symbolizes life, continuity . . . .

It occurs to me now that the sand dollar is connected to the other artifacts I considered writing about, Daddy’s cross necklace, given to me unexpectedly at Grannie’s funeral, and the pictures from the old film I just found and had printed. All together they say: These are your life-pieces that endure; you will endure. Oh and I almost forgot that I just had my DNA tested. When I got the results, I marveled at the migratory history of my ancient ancestors, the story of their survival. I hadn’t expected the rush of profound gratitude to all of them for living, that I might be here now. I am here, whole, because they were here. I carry pieces of them within me. 

I found this sand dollar, the skeleton of a living thing, on the beach while walking after a storm, while carrying my firstborn. I walk the path of generations.

We go on.

My co-facilitator’s voice gently broke the hush in the room, we teacher-writers having been immersed in our thoughts, our words, recording on paper:

“Now, how can your artifact drive your teaching of writing?”

I wrote:

My sand dollar can drive my teaching of writing in so many ways. It’s a metaphor for writing:

-Just start walking. Like I did on the beach. Just start writing,

-Until you’re walking, you don’t know what you’ll find.

You’ll have surprises. Rare things will come, if you keep at it.

These gifts are waiting, meant just for you.

I looked at the sand dollar and I know, if it could look back at me, it would have winked.

9 thoughts on “Artifact

  1. This piece gives us a glimpse at your writing process. I loved reading about your decisions about artifacts and how in the end, all three pieces were a part of your writing. Sand dollars are treasure from the sea. I enjoyed the connection to your grandfather. How sweet that he gave each grandchild the same gift.

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    • Granddaddy was fascinated by coins and collected them in his later years. The silver dollars are such a symbolic artifact of him. It’s an interesting gift. If I hadn’t had that last-minute inspiration on the sand dollar, I wouldn’t have been carried back to them. Writing is endlessly fascinating! I am so glad you enjoyed reading, Jessica. Thank you.

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  2. “i’ve learned not to question but to trust” – these are words for teacher, writers, and teacher-writers to live by. This slice gets me inside your process as a writer and leads me to product. The writing from the artifact – the sand dollar – is beautiful. The memory is woven together with feeling and images that are strong and clear. Thanks so much for sharing! I think when our teacher-research book club meets next, I will have them bring a personal artifact! Thanks so much for sharing, Fran!

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    • Your teacher book club sounds like a wonderful adventure, one that I’d love. The teachers will be surprised where writing about a personal artifact takes them. It’s also a good way to start building community with student writers at the beginning of the year – getting to know each other, honoring each other’s stories, and realizing the power of their own. Thank you so much for your warm words!


  3. It was fascinating to follow your thoughts and read the writing. “When I start writing my glimmer or breath of an idea, as it grows, shifts, and takes on a life of its own, it draws other things to it.” – I read this at the beginning and as I continued reading I could see this happening in your writing. Your ideas breathe, your writing is alive. Beautiful slice.

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  4. The writing process captivates me; it’s so mysterious and wondrous … I have been awed by the way one small thing will lead me to another and to another, during research and in the actual writing. Too many people think writing follows a linear process with clear and logical steps, but up until you make final edits, it’s an exploration, an adventure of wild discoveries. A crazy freedom where we are along for the ride, really – I hoped to capture a sense of that with this post. That you felt it and responded makes me grateful. Thank you so much.


  5. I knew I didn’t have time to read and comment on too many slices today, but when I saw your name, I thought Yes! I love Fran’s writing, and immediately clicked on the link. I knew I would walk away richer for the experience, and indeed I did. Your ideas about writing and your detailed experience are so rich and expressed so beautifully. I think this is my favorite line: “in the end, all things are connected. If you follow the glimmering threads far enough . . . .” What a fabulous post!

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    • Molly, I’m so moved by your response – and deeply honored that you feel this way. I am glad that particular line about following the glimmering threads & all things being connected speaks to you. I believe it; I know it to be true! Thank you so much for this amazing reply.


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