September, When Grass Was Green
Try to remember the kind of September
When life was slow and oh, so mellow
Try to remember the kind of September
When grass was green and grain was yellow…
(T. Jones/H. Schmidt, 1960)
I remember
our last conversation
in September
twenty years ago
you said you’d
been cutting the grass
and that maybe
you’d overdone it
going back and forth
with your mower
making a pretty pattern
—you thought your chest muscles
were sore from the turning
it worried me
—you were worried
about other things
but happy to be retiring
in two weeks
the thing about last things
is that you don’t know
they’re the last
I remember promising
to come celebrate your retirement
and how we spoke of you
having more time to spend with
your grandchildren
I remember getting the news
a week later
as soon as I walked in from shopping
with the retirement card I just bought
still in my hand
I remember that September day:
so glorious, cloudless
sky so blue it hurt
all the trees still green, sharp-edged,
clinging hard to the light
never again will September
be as bright
or kind
I remember coming home
for the last time
to speak at your funeral
to thank you,
my duty-minded, dedicated
father
twenty years
come this twenty-fifth day
of September
don’t you know
the grass is still oh so green
and Daddy, you are still
in the scent
of its cutting

Yesterday’s sunrise
with thanks to Susan Ahlbrand for the Do You Remember prompt with musical inspiration on Ethical ELA’s Open Write earlier this week. Susan remembered her own father’s passing with Earth, Wind & Fire’s “September”. I chose “Try To Remember” as a frame instead. The song predates me; I recall hearing it on my father’s radio when I was very small.
I still have the retirement card I bought for my father on the day that he died, with three workdays left to go. The card mentions that it’s a great time to be alive.
Twenty years, and that remains the great dichotomy of late September.